This is my story of learning to trust in the Lord in ALL THINGS. The big, the little, the difficult, and the easy. This story will never end, so long as I am alive. I called my blog 'For Mommy; For Johnny' because this is for me as it is for him. It is in memory of my son that I continue to talk about him, about miscarriage, stillbirth, infant death, loss, and life after loss. But it is also in memory of him that I continue to work on a donation base as a birth doula. In memory of him that I cherish my living children all the more. In memory of him that I desire to LOVE to the best of my ability ever single day that I am alive.
When you lose someone you love, it affects who you are, what you do, what you think, what you say, the way you live. And I have come to realize over the years following our Johnny's death that this isn't a bad thing. God has the power to make all things work together for GOOD for them who love Him and are called to His purpose. It is choosing to believe, hope and trust in Him that is key. It is easy in our human nature to forget the amazing FAITHFULNESS of our Father. For me, Johnny is a stone. He reminds me that our God IS gracious, that He is faithful to keep all of His promises. H preserves His people. He does not desire death. Death is NOT His Will. And through His Son, Christ Jesus, the grave is defeated!
We now have two "Rainbow Babies" (two living children who came following the storms of loss.) TWO! God has been so good to us. Sharing their birth stories IS important to sharing the story of learning to trust in God. Sharing Eisley's story was HARD for me for a long time. I believe this is why I am so far behind with blogging. But today, I am posting to change all of that. Today, I begin sharing the birth stories of BOTH of our rainbows and how each of them have brought healing to my heart, my husband's heart, and to our family.
Eisley holding her baby sister!
Eliana and Eisley! Our Rainbows
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